First Timer Aches
I want to decide what to paint before I start.
It’s ok to start without a plan. What arises spontaneously will awaken a part of my psyche that has long been in dormancy. My need to plan is a default and conditioned approach.
My painting needs to have a story or a concept.
I am open to receiving what comes to me naturally. It is a journey I am willing to take without the limiting expectations.
I am not skilled to paint what I want to.
I will attempt to paint in my own unique way. It doesn’t have to be perfect.
Because I have no training, I can't paint what's in my imagination.
Trusting the internal image-maker will give form to my own unique expression. I am here to let the energy lead me, instead of an aesthetic preference.
I can't be too explicit. It's better to stick to painting abstract.
My painting doesn’t define me or my inner world. So to say I am not my painting. I am here to explore the whole spectrum of expression rather than stay within the limits of appropriateness.
Painting darkness or goriness would be risky. I should stick to happy stuff.
I would paint the dark if it comes to me for the sake of an honest approach. I am more curious than shy about the mystery of the collective and the impersonal visual stream.
I'll scratch this painting and start a new one.
What if I stay and be with what I don’t like? What is the potential here that is not yet in my awareness?
My painting is ugly.
In this approach I am willing to hold how I feel about the paintings with curiosity. Understanding that authentic expression can take any form and all is welcome.
